I am not a good writer, I just write here to spread my thoughts. I don't know why lately I am addicted to the historical movies, or documentaries. As I remembered, I do hate histories, a typical students will said that history is a boring subjects that we are forced to learn by olders. But, as I growing up.. almost 22 years old. I am getting addicted to them.. history.. old times.. old people.. They keep me wondering about how things was hidden for decades, or centuries. All the movies and documentaries are just some or bunch of stories that REVEALED. We never know how much there are. 

Maybe thousands or millions that their stories was hidden. As I am living for 22 years old I realized that I didn't do anything like them (all the stories that i watched). It was so much differ from 22years old girl of 2016 version and 1930s version. I know its not relevant to compared. But.. the way they spent their time. They were just happy by talking, by walking while seeing the scenery, they were not afraid of what people said, or what people thought, they weren't bother at all. and they don't have time to showing off. How can I make people will continue passing down my stories to their children, grandchildren, grand-grandchildren, so that my stories will never get buried with me. 

I spent my whole 22years old by showing off that my life was THAT perfect, which its not really is. I spent my life by sleeping like a girl who doesn't sleep for years because I just tired with my deals. I spent my life by studying and learning what I don't like and continue to brag and blame about it everytime I failed. When I die, people eventually will forget.. maybe a few days later, or a month later or years later.. but still. they will forget, they will move on. But I want to create a story of my life, which will passed down to my great-great-great-great grandchildren after 10 or 20 years later. 

Perhaps.

Serabut otok

Kadang-kadang apa yang kita rancang, memang jarang sekali jadi betul-betul apa kita tulis
Kadang-kadang apa yang kita jangka, memang jauh sekali dari apa yang jadi
Kadang-kadang apa yang kita rasa, memang beza sekali dengan apa orang nampak pada zahir kita

What mom said was right, hidup ni kita belajar bukan takat atas buku. dari pengalaman kita belajar.. dari manusia kita belajar.. dari pilihan kita belajar.. dari salah kita belajar.. dari betul kita belajar.. tiap tiap saat jam berdetik, kita belajar. You will realize how the world is spinning, how important things you think it was before, not anymore.. how people come and go, how few people stay. how precious time passing and how you embrace every moment.. its you. You decide.

Hatred. A single word that could kill somebody inside.

I almost confused every second between myself, and myself who people asked me to be. Because I thought if I were different, people leave with horrible judgement. If I were not, they accept me perhaps. And I started to believe, that, from now, I chose..

to be myself. Will you leave too?


Kiddos

Assalamualaikum


its a normal feelings which everyone feel "if you can't accept them, i don't accept you" , since everyone put family first so do I, I even can trade my life for them, Muhammad Zakwan (as my follower's blog know i have a lil bro and yeah he's growing up) , Muhammad Edzar (my bro's son) and Chenta Nur Qairina (my 2nd sis's daughter), because i do know not everyone can deal with kids, like me, i can't deal with cats. aha.

yes, I do like kids. Bring me one, i'll treat like my own.

And yes, i'm an aunt, feel a bit older. Whatever.

COME BACK

Assalamualaikum.

hello kepada para pembaca, I know I haven't update for a quite time. I've been too too too too too too (repeat it sampai penat) busy and totally out of time nak menulis, so since I'm on semester break, curi lah sikit masa writing pasal my life yang tak seberapa.

okay, first, for all reader (specific to stalker) i already deleted my former post, yes, everything, because i am kind of "starting a new life back then" now, so apa kata kita delete yang dulu, dan kita mula yang baru ? wah gitew.

okay let's start all over again ! hello I'm Alia and I like warm hugs, I am 20 y/o now, baru habis first year degree student as pure economics student di UUM, what else what else, I like chocolate and I hate cheese, I hate waiting, I like rain, books, selfiess, taking pictures, I talk a lot, 80% of my ideas come out so wrong, got a very big ego and yes i got someone who really know how to break it well. 

well, life sekarang, I'm not at home for almost 6month, and this is my very first time jauh dengan family, homesick tu of course ada, nak-nak bila ada problem, lagi lah asyik nak mak T____T but seriously, what mom said was right, degree life is not totally about knowledge and books, its how you deal with people, how you manage your comfort zone, and how you know where you stand. 

I learn a lot. about life. I learned how to think positive every beginning of the day and be grateful of all I have, trust everything happened must be a reason, I learned to not expect more with everyone in your life and how to keep priorities in line. (actually thanks to someone who taught me well) and I'm learning myself everyday. 

selfie with the most beautiful women on earth, mom, as a first photo on a very first entry

will update later, bye !